Friday, 28 November 2008


Birthdays are strange - so much expectation and so much introspection. I had some really nice presents on Wednesday (including a complete and very thoughtful surprise package in the post which made my day! Thanks, Carolyn!) and my daughter had made me a lovely card and a paper mouse. Yet still my pervading mood is pensive. I can't help wonderring what I've achieved in the last year and am I any closer to where I want to be. And when my husband points out all my achievements and the myriad ways we are closer to where we want to be, I still feel vaguely dissatisfied. Should I be doing better? Doing more? Doing something differently? I can't help but think that if I could only look at life in a completely different way I could come up with a radical change which would shake things up in a really serious and satisfying way. But try as I might I can't come up with that kind of insight. Maybe I'm just unsettled by the prospect of inevitable change in January.


lotusbirther said...

happy (belated now) birthday to you (and your mother)! you are blessed with a winter birthday, to help give everyone some cheer in the dark of wintertime.
to paraphrase the little princess's maid - what do You want to do or be?

Liz said...

Well, we want to work out our work/life balance so that we spend more time together but also can eat and have a roof over our heads. It's proving a tricky one!